A 5K was never anything I had ever dreamed of doing, until this year. I convinced myself that it was something I could do, but only if I had people doing this with me.
The date was set, September 17, 2011. I quickly posted on facebook that I needed people to do this with me. In the back of my mind I knew that a little running and alot of walking was what I faced, but that was ok with me. The day was approaching, but my life was busy. I took on some extra responsibilities and failed to get much running practice. The thought came to mind that maybe I shouldn't do this.
I started 2 new workout classes the week before the race. The second class really worked my calf muscles, and the day before the race I found my legs sore and not ready to run.
Today! Race Day! Today is also my sons 12th birthday! Last night I baked an amazing cake for him and tasted a little too much of the frosting. I found myself very tired today. I really didn't want to go. No one was going with me. I was going to be alone (with 2,000 other runners). Can you see the excuses that I was making in my brain? I left early today, not really knowing what to do. So I got there over 2 hours early! I went to the registration table where they asked if I was doing the 1 mile fun run. Here goes my mind again! "Do they think I can't run a 5K?" "I know I don't resemble the normal 5K runner!" I quickly found myself back in my car on the phone with my husband. I started crying telling him I felt defeated. I was defeated in my quest for better health, defeated in keeping up with my duties for my family, defeated in...you name it!
Have you ever felt defeated? Maybe you have felt set up for failure? My feelings exactly this week and even today. I'll finish my story tomorrow. Just know that your struggle, these feelings can be overcome.
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